Dear Pastor Greg,

I just wanted to share with you what the Holy Spirit has been ministering to me, and what He has been doing in me through these last few weeks.

After Suzann shared about how God wanted her to repent of the prejudice of her country and the benefits she gained by it and after prayer went forth for those who have been touched by prejudice, I had to say, “Look at God!” Because the day before I was at a women’s meeting that the Lord revealed how the affects of prejudice and rejection had on my life and the fruit of it ”judgmental thoughts.”

It was time for things to be broken off.  I had for years (since Junior High School) been a person touched by this which produced rejection and that judgment passed against me, always wanted to find place in me regarding others; even though my only desire was to love and be loved; to be a blessing!

Well, two Wednesday nights ago, which in church and not too different from many other times (even in church), judgmental thoughts were being fired at me. Those arrows flying right in the middle of praise and worship (not too spiritual, huh!  Warfare it was!  I cried out to the Lord and said “Lord, what is this?  Why does this continue?” I know the thoughts are not my own, yet because they are in my mind, I have felt, responsible for them, and so I continue to “cast down vain imaginations, reasonsings, and everything that exalts itself against the knowlege of God.”  After crying out in my heart to the Lord about this, the Lord said, “Kerry, let me show you her heart. Let me show you the gift she is to Me.”  As she sang and worshipped the Lord, God showed me the beauty of her heart and gift she is to Him.”  It blessed me so much!  I just could not contain myself of the beauty that God saw, that I didn’t see in the beginning.  I was reminded of what He told me a week earlier, “to think only on the good, the best and the beautiful.  To see only the good, the best and the beautiful in others and all situations.”  The Lord began exposing the strongholds, and showing me to refuse to be taken captive by them.

Well the next phase of the working that occured, I was invited to a women’s meeting of which I was not sure whether to go or not. It was going to be a home meeting.  The reasonings in my mind where not to go, they were from a judgmental standpoint, and I wasn’t too sure about going.  Yet, I knew that I had to let my friend know whether or not I would be attending, so I began to ask the Lord what He wanted me to do, whether or not I should go.  Again, He began to deal with the “judgmental” thoughts of this “home meeting.” and encouraged me with thoughts He wanted me to see her heart and the gift she is to Him.  He encouraged me to go and embrace her and what she is doing for His Kingdom, and not to go empty handed; but to sow into her and what He’s doing. 

I went to that meeting as a guest, expecting, yet not knowing what God would do…there were somethings in my heart and my heart’s hunger was for God to have His way and to reveal to me what that was.  Before the end of that meeting, the ladies were asked to share something that the Lord ministered to them about this meeting and at first I did not want to get up and share (my test-imony seemed so negative), but the Lord worked it where everyone shared.  I got up in faith and asked, “Can I be honest?”  I began to share how it seemed that no matter where I went in life, I was always being judged, for the way I looked, my skin color, my hair, my ethnicity, and always seemed to be questioned; I always felt out of place, unaccepted.  Not saying this was the case, but it just felt that way.  The judgment I encountered from many produced rejection, and later seemed to produce in me a judgmental thought process about others.  I shared this with the ladies and also what the Lord had showed me about my sister in church and how He wanted me to come today to see another sister’s heart and the gift she was to Him and what He wants to do through her; to embrace her and support her; so I came. I shared other things of which I do not recall. And that was Saturday before last, the day before you prayed for everyone concerning ”prejudice.” 

And I believe in sharing that on Saturday, led the way for me to receive my deliverance from those strongholds.  It’s like the prinicple: if we confess our sins (bring them to the Light), He will forgive them, but if we hide them, they will not be forgiven (and things that are hidden, it only gives the enemy a place, a stronghold).  I see that there is deliverance in bringing things to the light, just like for Suzann. 

And I also see that my seed provided a way for my own deliverence.  Just like the Holy Spirit said yesterday, “breaking it off.” The Lord wants to break these things off of our lives so that we can be useful to Him so that He alone receives all the glory.  And this is my hearts cry!  None of me, all of You!  You be glorified!  My heart is for ministry, in every way the Lord desires of me.  I know that our gifts make room for us and it is with these words He encourages me. I know that He wants to use us more than we want to be used, and to be a blessing more than we want to be a blessing. And as you can tell, it is with all my heart, soul, and strength, that I desire it!  I cry out for it!   And yesterday, while in church, the Holy Spirit was moving in our midst, that fire we called out for came on me, and I believe consuming and breaking off stuff.  As I danced yesterday, strongholds where being broken: rejection specifically.  His presence mightily ministering to me (yet at the time, I didn’t know what it was and for, but mightily resting on me). He had many other times before, and yet, it was in a new way; I believe for a new gate! 

My heart has always been since I was 20 years old to be used by God to minister… and then in 1985 the Lord showed me that He was calling me to offer my gift; what I was doing “in the world” even before I came to Him.  Dancing had always been a part of my life since I was 5 years old, yet never did I imagine that God would ask me to dance for Him and in church.  I had never seen anyone dance in church prior to that revelation.  But my heart was elated when He allowed me to see another worship Him in dance and know that’s what He wanted me to do unto Him.  In 1990 He revealed to me that His glory, His miracle working creative and delivering power would be released to minister to the people as I worshipped Him in dance.  He has shown me that the prophetic is connected to it.  He showed me that He would bring this prophetic vessel before Kings and those in authority and bring hope and new vision–encouraging all to fulfill their purpose in Christ; to exercise their gifts, talents, and abilities; to take up “their cross,” His vision and purpose for their lives, and to follow Him. He said that He would raise them up to a new level, a new experience of His presence, His power, His glory, His manifested goodness and that vision [insight and forsight] would be given to them and that their lives would be changed and transformed by the power and presence of the Holy Ghost.  That His anointing [fresh fire], love and free favors destroys and dissolves all doubt, unbelief, and fear by the fearing of faith; and that the Spirit of th Lord would come upon them [enabling them] to carry out all His good will, plan, and purpose for their lives, where they are blessed to be a blessing, empowered to prosper, empowering others to prosper!

It is truly through this journey of faith that I have been privileged to see this manifested in part.  He recently showed me since we have been here in Arizona, that although there has been a season of private worship, I am His Worship Warrior!  And as I worship in dance I am warring: declaring and dancing the victory in behalf of His people.  He said, an instrument that He would use to restore the nations to Himself and to bring His salvation to the ends of the earth (Isaiah 49-17). I praise God for all that He is to us; to me!  Glory alone be to God…that “the Spirit of the Lord is upon me… ” (Luke 4:18).  It is my very heart’s desire, my prayer declaration and decree, agreeing with Him: I AM has made me, my heart to be what He has declared me to be, and the gift I am to Him; a pure useable vessel. 

I am honored to be apart of, with you, God’s family, and what He wants to do here at Skyway and in this West Valley!

God’s Vessel and Worship Warrior–

Love and blessings,

Kerry